The Howler is forcing us to watch yet another video of herself as a baby.
She's obsessed. At least two nights a week, we must drag out the camera and cables, hook them up to the VCR and TV, and watch an hour of the Howler as she squeaks, yelps, and wiggles.
Not much different from watching her now, except that now, the squeaks, yelps, and wiggles are live--up close and personal, instead of on film.
The part that bothers me is (other than how stupid I sound and look on tape):
She had the bronchiotrachiomylecia (sp) then, and her breathing is painful to hear. While I realize that she sounded loud then, after years of not hearing it, it hurts my heart to hear it on tape. My baby's little lungs were working so hard! I flinch now, to watch these tapes and hear it.
She doesn't seem to notice (how stupid I sound and look, or how loud her breathing was.)
I am glad, however, that we have her trying to say "kitty" on tape, and we also have her crawling around, wiggling her butt in time to The Steve Miller Band (on LP, no less.)
What I don't understand is this obsession she has with watching herself. She's not overly interested in hearing stories about what she was like, and she is certainly embarrassed when we use phrases like she used to: "Ducks smim in crick" being the most embarrassing so far.
Is this some 5-year old thing, or is it only my Howler? Do I need to worry that this indicates an egotistical need of some kind? She's not destined to become some Mad Scientist who will try to take over the world, is she?
She's obsessed. At least two nights a week, we must drag out the camera and cables, hook them up to the VCR and TV, and watch an hour of the Howler as she squeaks, yelps, and wiggles.
Not much different from watching her now, except that now, the squeaks, yelps, and wiggles are live--up close and personal, instead of on film.
The part that bothers me is (other than how stupid I sound and look on tape):
She had the bronchiotrachiomylecia (sp) then, and her breathing is painful to hear. While I realize that she sounded loud then, after years of not hearing it, it hurts my heart to hear it on tape. My baby's little lungs were working so hard! I flinch now, to watch these tapes and hear it.
She doesn't seem to notice (how stupid I sound and look, or how loud her breathing was.)
I am glad, however, that we have her trying to say "kitty" on tape, and we also have her crawling around, wiggling her butt in time to The Steve Miller Band (on LP, no less.)
What I don't understand is this obsession she has with watching herself. She's not overly interested in hearing stories about what she was like, and she is certainly embarrassed when we use phrases like she used to: "Ducks smim in crick" being the most embarrassing so far.
Is this some 5-year old thing, or is it only my Howler? Do I need to worry that this indicates an egotistical need of some kind? She's not destined to become some Mad Scientist who will try to take over the world, is she?
2 comments:
My kids love to watch home videos too. When my youngest brother was born, they had to do some weird interventions on his lungs, and my parents taped the whole thing. It makes me feel sad & sick to watch it.
No, it's not just a 5 yr old thing. All three of mine love to watch the family videos, their favorite is the years Justin was 2-5 or so. Of course more of those exist because we had more time to video when there was just ONE of them LOL!!
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