Things don't get easier as the children get older. No matter what lies you've been told to the contrary.
I have the choice of not letting the Toad go to Church Camp, or in letting him go. Considering the things he's been doing (and not doing) lately, allowing him a *reward* is not an option. No rewards for crappy disrespectful lazy behavior.
BUT (God, it's like BUT is my middle name these days) he does truly believe he has a call, and spending time surrounded by good Christian people may help put him right.
What do I do? How do I choose? I how do I choose between what could be considered a *reward* and what may be necessary for him in his Christian life?
I honestly don't know.
Nothing we do or say changes his behavior--except to make him keep himself hidden away in his room, away from us. We are at our wits end with this.
Either way, it's going to cost us loads--in self-doubt, in cash, and in stress. I'm stumped, and that doesn't happen often.
On top of everything else, I don't need this.
How am I supposed to choose between two equally right AND wrong (at the same time!) choices?
Am I the only one faced with this kind of thing?
The self-doubt and uncertainty of the whole thing irritates me to no end also. So much feels like it's up in the air, waiting to land on my head.
Dammit!
I have the choice of not letting the Toad go to Church Camp, or in letting him go. Considering the things he's been doing (and not doing) lately, allowing him a *reward* is not an option. No rewards for crappy disrespectful lazy behavior.
BUT (God, it's like BUT is my middle name these days) he does truly believe he has a call, and spending time surrounded by good Christian people may help put him right.
What do I do? How do I choose? I how do I choose between what could be considered a *reward* and what may be necessary for him in his Christian life?
I honestly don't know.
Nothing we do or say changes his behavior--except to make him keep himself hidden away in his room, away from us. We are at our wits end with this.
Either way, it's going to cost us loads--in self-doubt, in cash, and in stress. I'm stumped, and that doesn't happen often.
On top of everything else, I don't need this.
How am I supposed to choose between two equally right AND wrong (at the same time!) choices?
Am I the only one faced with this kind of thing?
The self-doubt and uncertainty of the whole thing irritates me to no end also. So much feels like it's up in the air, waiting to land on my head.
Dammit!
1 comment:
You could always flip a coin...:)
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